Apr 17, 2009

过场

子时宵夜,和伙伴聊大学经历。我和他同届却不相识,两人相互讲着自己的故事……
昔日平淡无奇的校园时光在这一晚突然变得无与伦比的美好,身边的路人也隐约成了当时校园里的行人。我们眼前的彼此,恍惚间就是当时的所有。回忆让我又来到了那时的校园,回忆把那份属于我的,曾经的,刚到大学,幼虎出窝那种自由、好奇又装模作样的情态递在我手里。我着实的握了握,掂了掂,抚慰几番。原来,还是如此的温暖。这一晚值得记忆。
图片内容为厦大漳州校区,也是我大学一、二年级读书、生活的地方。相对于本部,我在这里留下的回忆更有些意思。那两年,我开始学着观察身边的人,发现别人或被别人发现,学着独处,体验宁静,感受和开始认清自己。
今天是个过场,下一篇开始新的主题,Mise-en-Scene in Space and Time.(空间与时间中的场面调度)

Apr 13, 2009

Low-key Illumination

高反差布光是我最喜欢的布光方式,因为它极富戏剧性(明暗冲突)。当然,这种布光不是多多益善,太频繁的出现会使人感觉很累,并带有神经衰弱般的疲劳。
高反差布光制造出高对比度、更明显且暗的阴影,灯光显得较硬,布光被削弱或者取消。这种效果称为明暗法,即画面中同时呈现极亮和极暗的部分。
在这种布光方式下,导演可以叫人物在光影中游走。这是很有意思的事情,因为同一事物的明暗变化总能引起我们的视觉注意,同时光影产生的即时感,使我们总有揭开面纱,一窥到底的冲动。
在高反差布光中拍摄运动场景则更显激烈。《罗生门》中的比武场面,就因比武的激烈,以及光线喜悦般跳跃在剑柄上的情景,而被强调出来。

Apr 10, 2009

Three-Piont Lighting

经典好莱坞三点式布光,在突出主角的时候非常好用。黑白电影时期这种打光方式塑造了一个又一个宛若天仙的璀璨影星。这里的“璀璨”是很直观的描述,在那个时候,那种打光方式下,我们眼中,主角的皮肤在发光。于是黑白影片时代“玉美人”的形象是层出不穷。
三点式布光法中,每个镜头至少有三个光源:主光、补光、及逆光。逆光来自角色的后上方,主光从前方斜打过去,补光则来自靠摄影机不远的位置。通常主光比补光离角色近,亮度也较高,而逆光的光度则介于两者之间。
这种布光方法特别适用于低反差布光。低反差布光不强调画面明暗对比,主要着重在全面打亮的设计。通常,这样的光打起来较柔和,从暗处看也有透明感。总体来看画面明朗,很少有视觉压力,但是相对于高反差布光,此种方式塑造的画面戏剧感不够强烈。在喜剧、动作冒险、剧情类的影片中,我们会经常见到这种打光方式。

Apr 8, 2009

光的方向

光的方向,意指光线由其来源到受光体所走的路线。
“每一道光线都有最亮的一个点,也有完全消失的一个点……光线由其核心到黑暗的旅程,即是它历险与戏剧的所在。”(Josef Von Sternberg)
正面光[frontal lighting],从画面上几乎看不到阴影,阴影常会完全落在我们看不到的被摄物体后方,它往往给人展示出一个很平的画面;侧光[sidelight,or crosslight]一般用于塑造出角色的轮廓;逆光[backlighting],顾名思义,光源来自被摄物体的背后。若在同时不适用其他光源,逆光可造成剪影效果[silhouette],也是我最喜欢的效果之一,若于其他光源合用,则可产生温和不突兀的明亮气氛,即轮廓光[edge lighting,or rim lighting];底光[underlighting]指来自物体下方的光线,往往用来暗示画面外的火光,由于底光往往会扭曲相貌,通常被用来制造恐怖效果;顶光[top lighting]会用一种独特的效果来强调角色的面部轮廓,但是这种强调显得突兀,不太具有美感。

Mar 28, 2009

记起

“我在寻找你,像哑孩子在旷野寻找他的声音。”
PS:04年看《像鸡毛一样飞》记下的。

Mar 22, 2009

LIGHT——QUALITY

目前的沉淀实在是滞后了。思绪到了取景和焦距,这边才到灯光,也许多想想再写下来会更好。
QUALITY—光的质感。
人们通常会把颜色也加入质感的因素中去,其实这是触感的一种泛滥,毕竟,奶白、驼色、湖蓝在经验上都会带给人们柔软的感觉。
光的质感其实就是在指光线的强弱,我们习惯用一个较为感性的名词(质感)来涵盖它。“硬”光可以形成非常清楚的阴影,而“软”光则有柔光的效果。在生活环境中,太阳会制造出硬光,而天空只能提供软光。软硬是相对的,大部分的灯光都是介于软光和硬光的中间地带,但是差异并不难辨识。
光线的质感往往难以察觉,等到人们反应过来的时候,往往是光感作为表现主题的时候。但是难以察觉的内容经常都起到决定性作用。
“晌午饭后,艳艳的太阳还在那儿靠着,对面的白墙反过来的光拼命往窗帘这边挤,有那么几缕渗过来,偷偷的窥探她。她还是那样歪在桌前,毫不介意的夹着烟卷,垂颈低眉。我透过弥散在空中的烟瞥着她,起腻、心烦、但又不能不看。这让我想起中学时那几次糟糕的考试,懒得理,却又惦记那分数。”
这个场景,当光线稍硬(强),就意境全无了。
抬头处的照片反映一个印度低种姓的小孩在学钢琴。
当图中的光线过强,作品整体的视点感和叙事性就会减弱。

Mar 1, 2009

SHADOW

阴影是光的副题,在思考光的性质之前,我有必要想一下阴影能够带来什么。
直觉上,人们往往赋予阴影神秘、恐怖、未知、忧郁和期待。
眼前,房屋顶灯投落下一方浅浅的阴影,淡然、苍凉、没有任何生命力,它只是耀眼生活中不起眼的一缕灰蒙;夏天,我们站在树荫下,阳光投落的阴影斑斑点点,即便没有直接晒到,我们还能感到那个季节生命燃烧的温度;旷野中,我们堆起一个雪人,惨淡的日光在雪人身边勾勒出他的身影,尽管他面带笑容,你蹲在那影子里,也只能感到伪生命举目无亲的寂寥……
阴影很多时候并不是一个单纯、独立的存在,当我们关注到其来源和环境的时候,它带来的寓意就完全不一样了。
有时候我们将阴影作为一种构图手段,用来更好的表意。比如,晚上我们恶作剧吓人时,最拿手的无非用手电筒给自己的面部打上底光,制造出一种扭曲感,这种扭曲往往是恐怖、非生命感的象征。
阴影在影片里有两种,即投射阴影和相连阴影。当屋子只点有一支蜡烛,我们的主角儿坐在蜡烛前,此时,角色身后墙上的投影即为投射阴影;侧过来看,主角的身体一半受光,一半背光,背光部分和身后的阴影连成一片,在画面中我们只能看到角色受光的部分,这就是相连阴影。这两种阴影的戏剧感都很强,而且越是非自然的,越具有戏剧性。投射阴影在直感和想象之间给我们留出了完美的距离,连接阴影在想看到和不想看到之间营造出绝佳的对比度。

Feb 28, 2009

HIGHLIGHT

Highlight,强光,指一道光投射在表面,如图,整个球体有一个很明显的受光面。
Highlight可以显示事物表面的质地,若是平滑面,如玻璃或铜,强光一打则显出光亮或闪亮;若表面粗糙,如粗石头,则会扩散出更多强光来。
强光是一种非常是善于制造戏剧性的光种,它和阴影的鲜明对立,使得画面中的冲突感十分强烈。比如我们在中学素描课上画一个石膏球体,在普通的充分漫反射环境光下,我们看到的是一个完整的、白璧无瑕的球体;但当我们有意的屏蔽掉环境光,并打出一道强光投射在球体的侧面,我们看到的将是一个半球,与此同时,球体阴暗的一边也引起了我们的期待。

LIGHTING

灯光几乎可以决定一个影像的震撼力。
灯光不只是为了照明;一个画面中的明暗部分不但影响整个构图,也能引导观众去注意某些物体或动作——亮光可吸引我们的注意,或者泄露一个重要的举动;而阴影则能掩饰某些细节,制造悬疑。此外,灯光还能呈现质感,比如脸庞柔软的线条、木头粗糙的纹理、蜘蛛网细致的网络、玻璃的光泽、宝石的闪耀。灯光也可以用光影来修饰物体,比如强调一些细节和掩盖一些细节。
接下来,我会逐一思考光影的明暗关系,光的质感、方向、来源及色彩。

Feb 23, 2009

光影灵魂

没把算把这个主题写的很艺术,但是这个主题会较为全面的揭示光影在镜头构成中的独特作用。
光影,常常是我们最真切的,在第一时间感受到的,却又说不清楚的内容。
沉淀day by day……

Feb 15, 2009

新家以及过节引起的话题

搬了新房,知道房东是政协的处长,而且是个肥缺的处长,但是在收拾房子的时候还是有些小惊奇不断被我发现。
那些老的日货家电我就不用说了,一看就能看清楚,而且能够发现老夫妇是爱惜东西。深入一些观察让我更加吃惊,我小房间里的写字台的木料是樟木,拉出抽屉细看,边角做工全部也都是实木,没有一块儿三合板,板和板之间全都是木凿子对起来,没发现钉子,这么久了,还有浓浓的樟木味儿,台脚柜子门上也都雕着花,外观上看似笨重,实际上桌面一层和两个桌脚柜儿能够分开,拼装搬运很方便,真是实打实的好东西,一边擦一边心里就冒出买下来的冲动。擦灰的时候去洗抹布,一抬头看见水龙头旁边的水表,西德进口,表盖上英文写着west germany,外观就和老式水表一样,但是仔细看字体,看塑工的痕迹,那种感觉国货做不出来。果然是省委机关大院,这幢房子造的,细节之处见精神啊,那老头子还有四处房产呢。
昨天是情人节,和新室友聊了聊。大概内容如下:
“像我们这样刚踏出校门的学子,要是没有太好家庭背景的话,前五七八年肯定要为事业打拼。而同龄的女子,很快就得为自己选择个最好的人生依靠,否则就很快跨入剩女行列---女人最有魅力最繁华的年华在18-25岁之间,而男人,最有魅力的是在30岁左右,甚至40。因此,在女人最好的年景,她们有权力去追寻最优的选择。身边也有很多这样的例子,因为现实(如房子、家庭条件)因素男女朋友分手。”“现在社会的某些乱象就是70后的男人和80后的女人导演的...”进而我提出了另一个矛盾“男人情欲最旺盛的时期在十几二十几岁,而女人三十如狼、四十如虎”,这个与“女人二十出头就得要求找个条件好、经济基础殷实的男人、而多数男人得要到三十左右才能达到事业的小高峰”矛盾...讨论良久,没个终论。他的一句话说得很好“如果一个女人把她生命中繁华的时光托付于你,那么,你就有必要要真心待她一辈子”。我心里在想“如果不是呢?是不是就可以不用真心待她,等到她人老珠黄、黄脸婆之后偷偷找些个年轻貌美的二奶、三奶乃至更多奶?---事实上这也是很多当今社会上的中坚力量即所谓的成功人士正在做的”。

Feb 11, 2009

思考的关键词

情感—美感—占有—奉献—自由
这些都是为了什么?
我想养只猫了,
因为房子闹耗子。

Feb 10, 2009

2008届本科毕业典礼上的讲话

2008届本科毕业典礼上的讲话

纪念教堂

麻省剑桥市

200863

准备稿

 

在这所久负盛名的大学的别具一格的仪式上,我站在了你们的面前,被期待着给予一些蕴含着恒久智慧的言论。站在这个讲坛上,我穿得像个清教徒教长——一个可能会吓到我的杰出前辈们的怪物,或许使他们中的一些人重新致力于铲除巫婆的事业上。这个时刻也许曾激励了很多清教徒成为教长。但现在,我在上面,你们在下面,此时此刻,属于真理,为了真理。

你们已经在哈佛做了四年的大学生,而我当哈佛校长还不到一年。你们认识了三个校长,而我只认识了你们这一届大四的。算起来我哪有资格说什么经验之谈?或许应该由你们上来展示一下智慧。要不我们换换位置?然后我就可以像哈佛法学院的学生那样,在接下来的一个小时内不时地冷不防地提出问题。

学校和学生们似乎都在努力让时间来到这一时刻,而且还差不多是步调一致的。我这两天才得知哈佛从522日开始就不向你们提供伙食了。虽然有比喻说“我们早晚得给你们断奶”,但没想到我们的后勤还真的早早就把“奶”给断了。

现在还是让我们回到我刚才提到的提问题的事上吧。让我们设想下这是个哈佛大学给本科生的毕业服务,是以问答的形式。你们将问些问题,比如:“校长啊,人生的价值是什么呢?我们上这大学四年是为了什么呢?校长,你大学毕业到现在的40年里一定学到些什么东西可以教给我们吧?”(40年啊,我就直说了,因为我人生中的每段细节——当然包括我在布林茅尔女子学院的一年——现在似乎都成了公共资源。但请记住在哈佛我可是“新生”)

在某种程度上,在过去的一年里你们一直都在让我从事这种问答。从仅仅这些问题上,即使你们措辞问题都倾向于狭义,而我除了思考怎么做出回答外,更激发我去思考的,是你们为什么问这些问题。

听我解释。提问从2007年冬天我的任职被公布时与校方的会面就开始了。然后提问一直持续,不论是我在Kirkland House(哈佛的12个本科生宿舍之一)吃午饭还是在Leverett House(哈佛的12个本科生宿舍之一,本科高年级学生使用)吃晚饭,或是当我在办公时间与学生会见,甚至是我在与国外认识的刚考来的研究生的谈话中。你们问的第一个问题不是关于课业,不是让我提建议,也不是为了和教员接触,甚至是想向我提建议。事实上,更不是为了和我讨论酒精政策。相反,你们不厌其烦问的却是:为什么我们之中这么多人将去华尔街?为什么我们大量的学生都从哈佛走向了金融,理财咨询,投行?

对于这个问题有多种思考和回答方式。有一种解释就是如Willie Sutton所说的,一切向“钱”看。(Willie Sutton是个抢银行犯,被逮住后当被问到为什么去抢银行时,他说:“Because that is where the money is!”)你们中很多人见过的普通经济学教授Claudia Goldin Larry Katz,基于对上世纪70年代以来的学生的职业选择的研究,作出了差不多的回答。他们发现了值得注意的一点:即使从事金融业可以得到很高的金钱回报,很多学生仍然选择做其它的事情。实事上,你们中间有37人签到了“教育美国人”(Teach for America,美国的一个组织,其作用类似于中国的“希望工程”);1人将去跳探戈舞蹈并在阿根廷从事舞蹈疗法;1人将致力于肯尼亚的农业发展;另有1人获得了数学的荣誉学位,却转而去研究诗歌;1人将去美国空军接受飞行员训练;还有1人将加入到与乳癌抗战当中。你们中的很多人将去法学院,医学院或研究生院。但是,和Goldin Katz教授有据证明的一样,你们中相当一部分人将选择金融和理财咨询。Crimson对于上届学生的调查显示,在就业的学生中,58%的男生和43%的女生做出了这个选择。今年,即使在经济受挑战的一年,这个数据是39%

也许是为了高薪——难以抵抗的招聘诱惑,也许是为了留在纽约然后和朋友们一起工作生活和享受人生,也许是为了做自己感兴趣的工作——对于这些选择可以有各种各样的理由。对你们中的一些人,无论如何那也只是个一两年的契约。其他的一部分人相信他们只有在过得“富有”了以后才有可能过得“富有”价值。不过,你们依然会问我,为什么要走这条路?

我发现我自己有时候对于回答你们的问题并没有多大兴趣,比较而言更感兴趣的却是捉摸你们为什么提那些问题。如果果真如GoldinKatz教授所说;如果去搞金融确实是一个“理性”的选择,为什么你们会不停地向我提出这类问题?为什么看似理性的选择却让你们当中相当一部分人认为是令人费解的,伪理性的,或出于某种需求和强迫所作出的并不自由的选择?为什么这个问题似乎困扰着你们当中的很多一部分人?

我想,你们问我的是:关于人生价值的问题。虽然你们问得比较隐晦——即是些可以观察和衡量的大四学生职业选择的问题,而不是那抽象的,晦涩的,甚至会令人难堪的形而上学范畴的问题。人生价值,要人生?还是要价值?作为Monty Python那部片子(指的是六人行里《人生的价值》那一集)的讽刺意味的片名是不难理解的,作为《辛普森一家》(美国特别受欢迎的动画连续剧)的其中一集的主题也是不难理解的,可是当关系到“生存问题”的时候,就是不那么好办了。

那让我们还是暂时摘下那戴着的哈佛面具,收起那缺乏热情的冷漠,卸下我们看似刀枪不入的伪装,让我们尝试去探寻你们问的一些问题的答案。(我觉得校长能说出这句话真太棒了!我想她当时面对的听众的表情和我们在听课时的表情差不多。)

我觉得,你们之所以担忧,是因为你们不想仅仅是获得传统意义上的成功,而且要活得有价值。可是你们不清楚“鱼”与“熊掌”怎样才能“兼得”。你们不清楚是否,一家拥有著名品牌的企业提供的数目可观的并且预期着你未来财富的起薪,可以让你们的灵魂得到满足。

然而,你们为什么担忧呢?这部分是我们的责任。当你们一踏进这个学校,我们就告诉你们:你们将成为领导未来的中坚人物,你们将成为美国人民依赖的最顶尖、最杰出的精英,你们将改变整个世界。我们“望子成龙”的期望使你们背上了负担。而你们为了实现这些期望也已经做得很好:在对课外活动的从事中,你们展示出对于服务性工作的奉献精神;从对可持续发展的热情拥护,你们表达出对这个星球的关怀;通过对今年总统竞选的参与,你们做出了希望使美国政治重新恢复活力的实际行动。

但你们中的很多人现在会问,“怎样才能把做这些有价值的事情和一个职业选择结合起来呢?”“是否必须在一份有报酬却没价值的工作和一份有价值却没报酬的工作间做出抉择呢?”“如果是一个单选题,您会选哪一个?”“有没有折中的办法?”

你们在问我,也是问你们自己问题,即关于价值观的根本性的问题。你们在试图调解两个商品潜在的相互竞争,承认也许不可能兼得两者。你们在经历一次人生的转折,而这个转折需要你们自己做出一些决定。选择一条道路——一份工作、一项事业或一个研究生课题——不单单是在选择东西。每个决定都意味着“得”与“失”——过去与未来的种种可能。你们问我的问题其实有几分是关于“失”,即你放弃的那条道路让你失去了什么。

金融、华尔街,“招聘”一词已经成了这种博弈的符号,代表着比仅仅选择一条职业道路更广更深的一系列问题。这些问题早晚将面临着你们每个人——如果你是从医学院毕业,你将选择一个具体从医方向——做私人医生还是专攻皮肤病,如果你学的是法律,你将决定是用你的法律知识为一个公司法人卖命还是成为公众的正义化身,或是在 “教育美国人”两年后你决定是否继续从教。你们之所以担忧,是因为你们想拥有充满价值的同时又是成功的人生;你们知道,你们被教育要有大的作为,不仅仅是为了个人,为了自己生活地舒适,而是要让周围的世界因此而改变。(个人最喜欢这一句)因此你们才不得不思考怎样才能让其成为可能。

我认为你们之所以担忧有第二个原因——和第一个有关系但不是完全一样。你们希望过得幸福。你们蜂拥着去修“积极心理学”这门课——课程代号“心1504”——和“幸福的科学”这门课,不就是为了听点人生“小贴士”?可是,我们怎样才能获得幸福?在这儿,我可以提供一个启发性的答案:变老。调查数据显示年长的人——也就是我这把年纪的人——觉得自己比年轻人更幸福。不过,很可能你们没有人愿意去等着去看这个答案。

在聊天时我听过你们谈到你们目前所面临的选择,我听到你们一字一句地说出你们对于成功与幸福的关系的忧虑——也许,更精确地讲,怎样去定义成功才能使它具有或包含真正的幸福,而不仅仅是金钱和荣誉。你们害怕,报酬最丰厚的选择,也许不是最有价值的和最令人满意的选择。但是你们也担心,如果作为一个艺术家或是一个演员,一个人民公仆或是一个中学老师,该如何才能生存下去?然而,你们可曾想过,如果你的梦想是新闻业,怎样才能想出一条通往梦想的道路呢?难道你会在读了不知多少年研,写了不知多少毕业论文终于毕业后,找一个英语教授的工作?  

答案是:你不试试就永远都不会知道。但如果你不试着去做自己热爱的事情,不管是玩泥巴还是生物还是金融,如果连你自己都不去追求你认为最有价值的事,你终将后悔。人生路漫漫,你总有时间去给自己留“后路”,但可别一开始就走“后路”。

我把这叫做我的关于职业选择的“泊车”理论,几十年来我一直都在向学生们“兜售”我的这个理论。不要因为怕到了目的地找不到停车位而把车停在距离目的地20个路口的地方。直接到达你想去的地方,哪怕再绕回来停,你暂时停的地方只是你被迫停的地方。

你也许喜欢做投行,或是做金融抑或做理财咨询。都可能是适合你的。那也许真的就是适合你的。或许你也会像我在Kirkland House见到的那个大四学生一样,她刚从美国西海岸一家著名理财咨询公司的面试回来。“我为什么要做这个?”她说,“我讨厌坐飞机,我讨厌住宾馆,我是不会喜欢这份工作的。”找到你热爱的工作。如果你把你一天中醒着的一大半时间用来做你不喜欢的事情,你是很难感到幸福的。

但是我在这儿说的最重要的是:你们在问那些问题——不仅是问我,而是在问你们自己。你们正在选择人生的道路,同时也在对自己的选择提出质疑。你们知道自己想过什么样的生活,也知道你们将行的道路不一定会把你们带到想去的地方。这样其实很好。某种程度上,我倒希望这是我们的错。我们一直在标榜人生,像镜子一样照出未来你们的模样,思考你们怎么可以过得幸福,探索你们怎样才能去做些对社会有价值的事:这些也许是文科教育可以给你们“装备”的最有价值的东西。文科教育要求你们要活得“明白”。它使你探索和定义你做的每件事情背后的价值。它让你成为一个经常分析和反省自己的人。而这样的人完全能够掌控自己的人生或未来。从这个道理上讲,文科——照它的字面意思——才使你们自由。(英语里文科是Liberal Art,照字面解释是自由的艺术)学文科可以让你有机会去进行理论的实践,去发现你所做的选择的价值。想过上有价值的,幸福的生活,最可靠的途径就是为了你的目标去奋斗。不要安于现状得过且过。随时准备着改变人生的道路。记住我们对你们的我觉得是“过于崇高”的期待,可能你们自己也承认那些期待是有点“太高了”。不过如果想做些对于你们自己或是这个世界有点价值的事情,记住它们,它们将会像北斗一样指引着你们。你们人生的价值将由你们去实现!

        我都等不及想看看你们都最终会如何。毕业以后和学校常联系,常回“家”看看,让我们了解你们的情况。

Feb 8, 2009

Baccalaureate address to Class of 2008

Baccalaureate address to Class of 2008

The Memorial Church

Cambridge, Mass.

June 3, 2008

As prepared for delivery

 

In the curious custom of this venerable institution, I find myself standing before you expected to impart words of lasting wisdom. Here I am in a pulpit, dressed like a Puritan minister an apparition that would have horrified many of my distinguished forebears and perhaps rededicated some of them to the extirpation of witches. This moment would have propelled Increase and Cotton into a true Mather lather. But here I am and there you are and it is the moment of and for Veritas.  

You have been undergraduates for four years. I have been president for not quite one. You have known three presidents; I one senior class. Where then lies the voice of experience? Maybe you should be offering the wisdom. Perhaps our roles could be reversed and I could, in Harvard Law School style, do cold calls for the next hour or so.  

We all do seem to have made it to this point more or less in one piece. Though I recently learned that we have not provided you with dinner since May 22. I know we need to wean you from Harvard in a figurative sense. I never knew we took it quite so literally.

But lets return to that notion of cold calls for a moment. Lets imagine this were a baccalaureate service in the form of Q & A, and you were asking the questions. What is the meaning of life, President Faust? What were these four years at Harvard for? President Faust, you must have learned something since you graduated from college exactly 40 years ago? (Forty years. Ill say it out loud since every detail of my life and certainly the year of my Bryn Mawr degree now seems to be publicly available. But please remember I was young for my class.)  

In a way, you have been engaging me in this Q & A for the past year. On just these questions, although you have phrased them a bit more narrowly. And I have been trying to figure out how I might answer and, perhaps more intriguingly, why you were asking.

Let me explain. It actually began when I met with the UC just after my appointment was announced in the winter of 2007. Then the questions continued when I had lunch at Kirkland House, dinner at Leverett, when I met with students in my office hours, even with some recent graduates I encountered abroad. The first thing you asked me about wasnt the curriculum or advising or faculty contact or even student space. In fact, it wasnt even alcohol policy. Instead, you repeatedly asked me: Why are so many of us going to Wall Street? Why are we going in such numbers from Harvard to finance, consulting, i-banking?  

There are a number of ways to think about this question and how to answer it. There is the Willie Sutton approach. You may know that when he was asked why he robbed banks, he replied, Because thats where the money is. Professors Claudia Goldin and Larry Katz, whom many of you have encountered in your economics concentration, offer a not dissimilar answer based on their study of student career choices since the seventies. They find it notable that, given the very high pecuniary rewards in finance, many students nonetheless still choose to do something else. Indeed, 37 of you have signed on with Teach for America; one of you will dance tango and work in dance therapy in Argentina; another will be engaged in agricultural development in Kenya; another, with an honors degree in math, will study poetry; another will train as a pilot with the USAF; another will work to combat breast cancer. Numbers of you will go to law school, medical school, and graduate school. But, consistent with the pattern Goldin and Katz have documented, a considerable number of you are selecting finance and consulting. The Crimsons survey of last years class reported that 58 percent of men and 43 percent of women entering the workforce made this choice. This year, even in challenging economic times, the figure is 39 percent.  

High salaries, the all but irresistible recruiting juggernaut, the reassurance for many of you that you will be in New York working and living and enjoying life alongside your friends, the promise of interesting work there are lots of ways to explain these choices. For some of you, it is a commitment for only a year or two in any case. Others believe they will best be able to do good by first doing well. Yet, you ask me why you are following this path.  

I find myself in some ways less interested in answering your question than in figuring out why you are posing it. If Professors Goldin and Katz have it right; if finance is indeed the rational choice, why do you keep raising this issue with me? Why does this seemingly rational choice strike a number of you as not understandable, as not entirely rational, as in some sense less a free choice than a compulsion or necessity? Why does this seem to be troubling so many of you?  

You are asking me, I think, about the meaning of life, though you have posed your question in code in terms of the observable and measurable phenomenon of senior career choice rather than the abstract, unfathomable and almost embarrassing realm of metaphysics. The Meaning of Life capital M, capital L is a cliché — easier to deal with as the ironic title of a Monty Python movie or the subject of a Simpsons episode than as a matter about which one would dare admit to harboring serious concern.  

But lets for a moment abandon our Harvard savoir faire, our imperturbability, our pretense of invulnerability, and try to find the beginnings of some answers to your question.  

I think you are worried because you want your lives not just to be conventionally successful, but to be meaningful, and you are not sure how those two goals fit together. You are not sure if a generous starting salary at a prestigious brand name organization together with the promise of future wealth will feed your soul.  

Why are you worried? Partly it is our fault. We have told you from the moment you arrived here that you will be the leaders responsible for the future, that you are the best and the brightest on whom we will all depend, that you will change the world. We have burdened you with no small expectations. And you have already done remarkable things to fulfill them: your dedication to service demonstrated in your extracurricular engagements, your concern about the future of the planet expressed in your vigorous championing of sustainability, your reinvigoration of American politics through engagement in this years presidential contests.  

But many of you are now wondering how these commitments fit with a career choice. Is it necessary to decide between remunerative work and meaningful work? If it were to be either/or, which would you choose? Is there a way to have both?

You are asking me and yourselves fundamental questions about values, about trying to reconcile potentially competing goods, about recognizing that it may not be possible to have it all. You are at a moment of transition that requires making choices. And selecting one option a job, a career, a graduate program means not selecting others. Every decision means loss as well as gain possibilities foregone as well as possibilities embraced. Your question to me is partly about that about loss of roads not taken.  

Finance, Wall Street, recruiting have become the symbol of this dilemma, representing a set of issues that is much broader and deeper than just one career path. These are issues that in one way or another will at some point face you all as you graduate from medical school and choose a specialty family practice or dermatology, as you decide whether to use your law degree to work for a corporate firm or as a public defender, as you decide whether to stay in teaching after your two years with TFA. You are worried because you want to have both a meaningful life and a successful one; you know you were educated to make a difference not just for yourself, for your own comfort and satisfaction, but for the world around you. And now you have to figure out the way to make that possible.  

I think there is a second reason you are worried related to but not entirely distinct from the first. You want to be happy. You have flocked to courses like Positive Psychology” — Psych 1504 and The Science of Happiness in search of tips. But how do we find happiness? I can offer one encouraging answer: get older. Turns out that survey data show older people that is, my age report themselves happier than do younger ones. But perhaps you dont want to wait.  

I have listened to you talk about the choices ahead of you, I have heard you articulate your worries about the relationship of success and happiness perhaps, more accurately, how to define success so that it yields and encompasses real happiness, not just money and prestige. The most remunerative choice, you fear, may not be the most meaningful and the most satisfying. But you wonder how you would ever survive as an artist or an actor or a public servant or a high school teacher? How would you ever figure out a path by which to make your way in journalism? Would you ever find a job as an English professor after you finished who knows how many years of graduate school and dissertation writing?  

The answer is: you wont know till you try. But if you dont try to do what you love whether it is painting or biology or finance; if you dont pursue what you think will be most meaningful, you will regret it. Life is long. There is always time for Plan B. But dont begin with it.  

I think of this as my parking space theory of career choice, and I have been sharing it with students for decades. Dont park 20 blocks from your destination because you think youll never find a space. Go where you want to be and then circle back to where you have to be.  

You may love investment banking or finance or consulting. It might be just right for you. Or, you might be like the senior I met at lunch at Kirkland who had just returned from an interview on the West Coast with a prestigious consulting firm. Why am I doing this? she asked. I hate flying, I hate hotels, I wont like this job. Find work you love. It is hard to be happy if you spend more than half your waking hours doing something you dont.  

But what is ultimately most important here is that you are asking the question not just of me but of yourselves. You are choosing roads and at the same time challenging your own choices. You have a notion of what you want your life to be and you are not sure the road you are taking is going to get you there. This is the best news. And it is also, I hope, to some degree, our fault. Noticing your life, reflecting upon it, considering how you can live it well, wondering how you can do good: These are perhaps the most valuable things that a liberal arts education has equipped you to do. A liberal education demands that you live self-consciously. It prepares you to seek and define the meaning inherent in all you do. It has made you an analyst and critic of yourself, a person in this way supremely equipped to take charge of your life and how it unfolds. It is in this sense that the liberal arts are liberal as in liberare to free. They empower you with the possibility of exercising agency, of discovering meaning, of making choices. The surest way to have a meaningful, happy life is to commit yourself to striving for it. Dont settle. Be prepared to change routes. Remember the impossible expectations we have of you, and even as you recognize they are impossible, remember how important they are as a lodestar guiding you toward something that matters to you and to the world. The meaning of your life is for you to make.  

I cant wait to see how you all turn out. Do come back, from time to time, and let us know.